Tomorrow

I can't believe it. After weeks of thinking Alex will be home soon, he is finally set to be discharged tomorrow. I was in a mad hurry this morning, running errands and wrapping up loose ends, realizing that after all this talk about how my life has been turned upside down, it is finally about to undergo a beautiful, happy evolution that will keep me homebound for some time.

The past three months in the NICU have been terrifying and depressing, but also enlightening. I've learned more about neonatology than I ever thought possible. I've seen things that no parent should ever have to see. My marriage has been put to the test, as have my maternal instincts. Words are insufficient to describe what I have experienced since the twins were born, though this blog has helped me sort some of it out. As I sit and write this, I am crying. I hope you can imagine why.